Why and how did I become a nurse. Well that’s a good question. I ask myself that sometimes during shifts. I would love to say it’s because I love people and I have an overwhelming desire to help those in need. But that would be a lie. I don’t hate really hate people,even though I prefer dogs over people, let’s just say it grew on me.
So backtrack many many years ago. I find myself a separated housewive with an amazing biology degree that I haven’t used in years and the realization that I am going to have to get a real job. Housewives don’t pay much. So I’m at chipotle having lunch and a see someone walk in with scrubs. So a light bulb pops in to my mind…. google nursing income… well my my my… I’ll be a nurse!!! That’s easy right??? Hahahaha oh if I knew then what I know now I wouldn’t of been so cocky.
So I find that with my degree I can skip over prerequisites and be that much closer to becoming a registered nurse. Sounds great right? WRONG WRONG WRONG … I see the price of college tuition. Anxiety. So I swallow my pride and ask my soon to be ex for money. After all I help but him through college. He hangs up on me and tells me to not call back because him and his new girlfriend sleep early now.
So I get two crappy jobs ..grab my kids, tell them I love them and drop them off with their dad. So for the next 3 years I work two full time jobs and go to school full time. Sounds fun right. Well it was the beginning of a new world, it sucked. Big time.
I will talk about nursing school later. Let’s just say I suffered my first of many full blown anxiety attacks in the first year of nursing school. I ate fast food, gained 60 lbs, got addicted to red bull, and only slept about 3 hrs a day. I was fat, and my skin looked horrible, and I had bags and dark circles under my eyes for 3 years. That was just the school part. Horrible why would anybody continue with it…. nursing.
Nursing was exciting to me… I loved it. From day one I was hooked. Learning this and that.. going on clinicals and actually being hands on, interaction with real people. I saw my first code during my E.R rotation. Although i was just watching, it was the biggest rush I have ever had. Basically someone’s heart stopped, breathing stopped, and with a bunch of chaos.. meds..chest compressions.. scrambling back and forth.. person was alive again HOLY CRAP!! Right then and there… I decided this is for me. I will be a nurse.. I want this. I almost quit nursing school… I was making ok money with my two jobs and I was thinking what I was doing to myself wasn’t worth it, until this day came. I vowed not to quit. And to see it through. Best choice I made probably my entire life.
So that’s how I became a nurse. I’m not a professional writer, truth be told English is my second language. So bare with me. But the nursing world is amazing and I have to tell my story of how nursing will make you crazy, laugh, cry, all within the first 2 hrs of your shift. True story.